In 2005, I had big plans for 2006. I was going to love my new job, but get pregnant and have to leave it in 2007. I was going to get pregnant. (I just looked. In January, I was going to “start trying” in 2006.) I was going to lose tons of weight, and exercise religiously- I think I was even going to learn to like it. I was going to complete my hours for my LCSW exam. And blog more often.

Well, two out of six ain’t bad. I do love my new job and I have been better about blogging. Clearly, the pregnancy thing did not work out. I did great on the weight loss and exercise goals, for a grand total of about four months. I’m done with my supervision hours for my LCSW, and still have yet to go on the work hours. I should be done soon, though.

What do I want 2007 to bring? Are we talking bullshit goals or real goals? For bullshit goals I’d like to:

Be a better wife, and friend. Learn to accept my fate, whether it includes the real goals or not. Learn to love myself better. Grow as a social worker. Grow as a person.

But for real goals:

1. Really- be serious about losing weight. Get off my fat ass and do it, and not give up this time when the going gets rough.

2. Get my LCSW (that includes finishing the hours, the application, and passing a very big exam.)

3. Get pregnant. Stay pregnant. Have baby.

4. Take more pictures. Learn how to use my fancy pants new camera. Be a better photographer.

I think four goals is good. Less to really stick to, you know. And three of them are in my control. Which makes for better odds.

This year has been, overall, a good one. It has had it’s ups and downs. When I think of the downs of the year, losing a friend is the number one thing that pops into my head. My mom moving to Kentucky is - while not a heartbreaker, not one of my favorite events of the year. I faced the harsh reality that my weight affects not just my day to day living and my emotional healthy, but also my long-term health. That turned into being a good thing. I started to face the reality that my father is ill. I also started to deal with the fact that me getting pregnant was not going to happen like it did for the rest of the women in my family- I would not simply think about it and be pregnant.

I had my ups though. I started to like exercise. I started eating the right way, and started losing weight. I got to see my niece and nephew alot, and learned more about how much I love my sister. Khalil and I had an amazing year together. We get stronger and stronger.

Overall, 2006 was a good year. I hope 2007 tops it, though.

My first big act of 2007? Is to start a new blog. It’s really just for pictures. I’m not going to like here from there, because I think I will share that blog with my family. But the main point of it is to have a place to showcase my pictures. Now that I have the new camera, I’m going to try and take pictures more often. Like, daily. And I want a place to share them! There’s not much there now, but my next item for today is to put stuff there. So it will be up soon. Go on and visit!