I start my new job tomorrow.

I don’t know what I’ll be doing, where I’ll be sitting, who I’ll be sitting with. I don’t know what my day will look like or even what time exactly I’ll be leaving. I don’t know what I’ll have for lunch or who I’ll eat lunch with, if anyone.

I think that’s the biggest part that gives me some twinges of anxiety. My sister kindly pointed out I do know some things- that I won’t be leaving my desk/ cubicle, I won’t be going outside, I’ll have less flexibility. I think she was pointing these things out because they appear to be negative, but for me, for right now, all those things are actually ok with me. They may seem negative tomorrow, but for now they’re ok.

My brain appears to be having more anxiety than I am, though. I had a dream last night that I totally missed my first day. I had some appointments to go to, some bad news, then more appointments (in my dream). I didn’t think to call my supervisor until 4:30pm, and then I was in tears. She told me it was ok, to come in tomorrow. And in my next dream, I did go in the next day. Fifteen minutes late, with no paperwork filled out.

Sigh.

I know neither of those things will happen. The paperwork will be done, and I’ll be there at if not before 8:30. But I guess that’s my brain or subconscious’ way of telling me that I’m maybe a little nervous?

We’ll see how it goes!